For the last several months I’ve been hemming and hawing about chopping my hair off, around 12 inches to be specific. In college I mostly had short hair, grew it out, and it’s been long ever since. Many of my friends have told me they prefer me with long hair, which is a big reason why I’m hesitant to cut it off. But now that I’m baking all the time the hair just gets in the way. Most days I pull it back into a bun or ponytail, and the off chance that I go out and wear it down, any styling I do it it gets flattened, weighed down and becomes a tangled mess.
More than just the inconvenience/laziness of not styling my hair daily, I’ve been using my hair as a security blanket. I can name several occasions in which I’ve literally (yes, literally!) hid behind my hair. I will say that I’m not as confident as I’d like to be in my own skin, and hiding behind my hair certainly doesn’t help. When I start leaning towards cutting it off, I’m reminded of all the people who’ve said I look better with longer hair. What does that mean about me with a shorter style? While I might be ready to leave my sad straggly locks behind, I don’t know if I’m ready to be ugly. Instead of being nervous about making a bad decision, I’m afraid of what people will think of me. I know I know, kind of sad.
Thankfully, a bigger part of me doesn’t give a shit about what they say and I’m planning on going through with it. I haven’t decided on a cut or a hair salon, so if you have any input feel free to chime in! I could honestly go on and on about hair (just ask Gary.) Should I color it? Cut it even shorter? I’m ready for a change! Oh, and if you are wondering, I am going to donate my ponytail as I haven’t dyed or processed my hair much in any way.
(photos from Rasysa)